oh pooohey .
im so pissed , so mad and so boiling up . ievencutmyselfdidntbelieveiddothat it's nort that pain when u actually do it . serious ! anyways . hip hoorays for band tomorrow .

to say the truth . i dont wanna go to school tomorrow . maybe not even for band . a few scoldings here and there . . no new school shoes today from mummy when she comes home i bet . i just feel so . down . i guess . had a tiffle with them yesterday . it's nort solved . not until now .

scolded here and there . scolded here and there . scolded here and there . so much for scoldings . i had enough of it . i just feel like transfering to kcpss when i move house . which will be like . in november . i wanna just . moooooooove house . uess i wont have any hamsters this birthday . might even want to cancel my birthday party . annual party i held since like . p1 . no more happy times .

i feel like . just cutting myself up into pieces . maybe .

sainity . murmmerings . behind my back . curses being thrown here and there . heck thats what the whole world's doing . . . every second around the world . i bet . curses would be said aloud . or at least said in their hearts . .

what's so bad . . being cursed . just ignore them . but i hell cant . and that was what started the stupid curses . stupid dumbass attitude . .

friends . i dont think i even have one true friend in class . i bet the girls are like . saying . fuck you . to me . every single one of the girls . all nine of them .

i want my yiying . i want my chun yee . winnie . even abigail . i miss the sainity sixfive bees . everyone of them . every 40 one of them . heck even the guys .
i miss deborah . i miss the stinking times . maybe even the elections .that was what drew me closer to yiying . wasnt it ?

i doubt everything that i have . grades . and whatnots .

im trying to be hyper now . or at least . happy . but i just cant . cant to any happiness into these writings . i guess this is what yiying's feeling . maybe .

nothing much . yiying told me to update . and so . i did .

band's tomorrow ! hip horays . but . i dont feel so happy bout it now .
it circles and circles . into one big round . my mood . depends on relationships with my classmates . . i just cant handle this . i just wish . to have someone to cry it out on . grades . whatnots . i cant handle it anymore .

i shan't dwell on it so much . i'll try to cry it out on my pillow .

- Tas -
-Roxy-